Fat and frumpy. Old and ugly.
You know those things we say to ourselves.
It’s that self loathing. And for many women it began in their teen years.
For me, it began in my childhood. But that’s a whole other story.
As Ajay Rochester says in her 5 Minute Diet Book, starting from a point of self disgust is not helpful.
Instead, we should begin a new fitness venture from a point of being positive… Affirmations if need be. Self control over negative thoughts. Choosing workouts that make us smile.
Lately I have been doing more walking and jogging workouts.Outside. Or inside… Leslie Sansone being some of these workouts.
Leslie is bubbly, chatty, positive. I can pray while walking or jogging, otherwise mindless workouts. ….Hail Mary… Contemplation instead of mindlessness…
Leslie has an October walking and jogging challenge beginning on Monday. To overcome these I-hate-me feelings I am taking the challenge. Setting a plan for x number of kilometres.
And looking at my chaotic eating habits… Yes, my life means I tend to be chaotic in eating. As described in Intuitive Eating…” The Chaotic Unconscious Eater often lives an over scheduled life, too busy, too many things to do. The chaotic eating style is haphazard; whatever’s available will be grabbed….nutrition and diet are often important to this person…just not at the critical point of the chaos. Chaotic eaters are so busy putting out fires ( in my case doing all that I need to do and working two jobs and homeschooling and trying to eat what’s on hand to save money..) they have difficulty recognizing biological hunger until it’s fiercely ravenous. Not surprisingly, the Chaotic Eater often goes long periods of time without eating.”
Mmm. Me to a tee.
So my October fitness challenge is to hate myself a little bit less ( son Thomas always says to me, Mum you are worse than my friends, girls my age, about hating your looks and body! …yep, that’s me..), to walk and jog perhaps with Leslie, to structure eating and be more mindful.
I’ll report back regularly!
And …..want to join me?