Billy Blanks’ Taebo motto.
I haven’t had a fitness post in awhile. But I’m still working out. And wanting to lose a few kgs
But how? As someone who lost almost 40kg over a five year period, I know the ins and the outs, the ups and the downs, of weight loss. Of weight maintenance .
I am chubby. I don’t think I will ever be slim. There was a period just after my weight loss when I was sick and I lost even more weight.. And people at church said I looked fantastic. Maybe I did. I wasn’t eating but I was working out hard.
But I can’t continue that in my normal life. Well, not at the present. So I am at a normal weight for me now. Not a fantastic looking weight.
However, I would like to lose a few kgs. Not to be at that fantastic looking hard for me to maintain weight . But to be healthier. To not cringe quite so much, when I look at myself.
And to work on that emotional eating.
Because one day recently I not only felt strong emotions but I expressed them. And as soon as I did I knew I needed to eat. Eat something fattening. To help with feeling and expressing those strong emotions.
I wanted pasta but settled for fish and chips. Too much fish and chips.
I know I eat to deal with emotions but I do it anyway. ( At least it’s a big step up from not knowing why I eat)
Nice Girls Finish Fat. A book I have owned for awhile but that I couldn’t let myself get into. Because I like being nice. And what would happen if I wasn’t?
I read a section and thought, well, maybe I can set limits and boundaries. For myself. And others.
For example, I can make The Plan for my continuing workouts and for getting eating on track. I can make food the last thing I turn to when dealing with emotions. I can enjoy the food and alcohol but choose lower calorie versions . I can savour and eat mindfully.
I can put a stop button on myself.
I can blog my weekly exercise and food because maybe others are here, too.
I can pray.
I can risk not always being nice.
I can take who I am as a strong person, a strong woman, and be strong where I am weak. With the strength of prayer . Because Mary, our Mother, was strong, too. And her prayers are strong.
So… Update for this week? I have loved, loved, loved more cardio workouts … Especially Just Sweat, the workout part to the Wii Just Dance game. And Ellen Barrett’s pilates based floorwork. And today a very cool kickboxing work.
And watching my calories. Yet still eating yummy stuff!
And doing that whole mindful thing… Why are you eating?
It’s been fun! Especially the cardio workouts. I am a bit addicted to those.
So maybe I will blog on fitness again. Every now and then.
We are what we eat. And do. And think.
That’s living without school.