I am reading – in parts. A dribble here and a dribble there. A book I have on loan from a friend.
Monastic steps for every day life. By the Abbot of a Benedictine Monastery in Worth, U.K. Fr. Christopher Jamison.
Silence is Step 1 of the monastic steps in the book. Ouch. I tend to be enveloped in busy-ness.
Inspired by this step, I have taken time for silence.
In silence and in solitude, I start to question and doubt. Is this event/thing/whatever really from God or have I taken things into my own control-freak hands once again?
In silence, I begin to doubt God’s hand in my life and I see where I take control and, I guess, don’t let God have control.
Step 4 is Humility. Another ouch.
“We descend by exaltation and we ascend by humility” Rule of St Benedict, 7: Humility.
You know you have a problem with humility and pride when you are counselled on such areas and you reply, inwardly of course , I mean, who wants to admit to this out loud? – “Not again. I know it’s not pride”.
And of course it is. That inward dialogue certainly lacks humility.
Great book, by the way. Not built upon esoteric ideals but with every day tips for living an every day monastic life.
I may even be able to get beyond Step 4 ( Humility) ~ one day!